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Open My Heart, Set Me Free

Have you smiled today? You'll die if you don't. Im serious.

3 years into the future

I can't believe I decided to write on this page after leaving it stale for... 3 years. 

Do you know what this feels like? 

 Imagine yourself shipwrecked on an island miles off the coast, found a lover, get married, have children and grow old. By then your old home is just a fragment of a once perfect memory. It would have seem that this island has always been your home; it would have seem that home has never left. 

 One day, while you were strolling at the beach,  a familiar photo frame washes ashore. Beneath the grit and silt, the physically unrecognisable nature-battered frame triggers something long buried within you- that shrouded memory of your origin. Suddenly you yearn for that place where your heart belong. However, the presence of the photo frame itself tells a story. What else would it have been there if it was not for the destruction of your homeland?

 That moment where reality unravels your history in full display for seagulls, crabs, your wife and kids, accompanied by the orchestral crashing of waves- you feel complied to pick it up and give it a new home.

Once the past, is finally in the present. Though the splinters from years of ignorance scars your heart, you feel comfortingly complete.

You- are Ian.

This is what Ian is feeling.

Ian is finally at home. Ian is grateful.

Ian is going to sob and eat chocolate.

Ian will now say goodbye.

GOODBYE


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Love this song!

Fireflies
Songwriters: Young, Adam;

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams


© OCEAN CITY PARK;

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Wishes and frets...

I'm seeking for a change, for it's my heart's great desire.

I'm seeking for a song, for my soul cries in pain.

I'm seeking for a tree, which will never topple over me, unlike friendship cripple and fake.

I'm seeking for a ray of hope in the clouded abyss, to save me from sinking ships.

I'm seeking for a pen to write my name in blood, as a promise to my friend, saying,

I'm seeking for your genuine care, nothing more, for that would show me, what a friend you are, from deep heart's core.

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Keep the ball rolling...

When you start to blog, you should never stop. Even if you want to stop, it's kinda hard really. All the reminiscence and reflection, the flashbacks and passion, why stop when you can just roll it?

Form 4 is a hard one really. Orientation is fun, but it worries me when it comes to studies. Add maths had been a pain to the arse neck, physics wrecks the heart, and sejarah kills the brain. What will I have left without these?

Anyway, I'll do my best to catch up, no way hosay I'll bury myself in the dreadful pile of soil. Stress is not a factor of failure, only the way you manage it is.

The sun sets into the sleepy mellow,
Bringing flowers to rest,
the moon shines with it's halo,
like the ring of knights,
and damsels in distress.

Good bye I say my dear friend,
for it's our time to part,
I'll see you another day,to lend a hand,
in making apple tarts.

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When Planets Collide


The day when Mars meets Earth is the day when all humans die.

7 billion people worldwide,
7 billion personalities,
All unique, lovable and distinguishable.

So many brains in the world!!! Mine seems to be intact to my skull but yours.. why is it on the floor? Wait... yours too.. and you.. you *gasp* even you... AHHH!!!!!!!

Another sad case of 'Battle of the brains' . Usually caused by misunderstanding, idiotic quotes, voodoo dolls, hormones , misunderstanding .No physical contact is needed for this, words are good enough to make your skull pop. ( If used with sense, you should be able to see that words are actually from the mind, not the mouth. The big hole on your face is just a way through. Get it? Thus the name ' Battle of the Brains'. )

These ugly scenes are meant to be prevented from occurring, like SERIOUSLY. So, to all you complex organisms out there, take a good care of your cavitas oris ( on your face ) and shut them up when necessary. ^^ Nevertheless, there are something that we all should understand, no minds are alike, for we were created uniquely.

' No Minds Alike '

Obviously, it means every different human give unlike opinions, ideas, emotional impact etc.... However, what we do not know is the basis or shall I say origin, of those opinions, ideas, emotional impact etc.... Now, we should know that how a person sees something is totally dependent on the mindset he/she has. It may seem to be irrational when someone don't get your point or totally disagrees with you and maybe sometimes, we just don't get them! I mean, it's like when A says that a tomato is a fruit while B stated that a tomato is a vegetable. We all know that a tomato is a fruit ( You do know right?) , but that B seems to be so in denial. Don't be surprised that there are more Bs than As though, because it all comes from a person's mindset. It's not Bs fault for being like that, it's their surroundings during those childhood years that made them as so. Nobody told them it was wrong when they were young, so why would you bother to tell me when all those year of 'Tomato= Vegetable' had passed?

Anywho, I don't really want to continue telling anyone this. Just here to say that, may it be that your A or B, learn to accept each other. Change your point of view if you need too. Oh yea, and here's something:

1. The world revolves around the sun, not a person.
2. You are not the only person in the world, others are marshmallows humans too.
3. Think not of yourself, consider the public.
4. How good you are does not depend on how totally independent you are in your work. The fact is, compromising with others and how well you perform matters more. Besides, with that, you will be playing on the safe side!
5. A bigger perspective is better than a narrow one.
6. I don't hate, I love.
7. Accept how other people are, they are your brothers and sisters.
8. When you cry, 'all of us' will share the same sadness, when you're angry, we will feel that way too. So, if a person feels sad, another one feels angry, won't that make us emotionally crazy?

Love,
Me.

p.s No hard feelings kay? This is mostly general, if you know what I mean ^^.











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What a loathsome day...

Had senamrobik this morning. It was fun, seriously (Never thought it would) . Was quite a nice day at school, except for the incident where I was supposed to join the competition which I did not ( Sorry for menyiasoikan you guys ). Oh yeah, I saw hornbills today!! Four of them. I had a feeling that they are from the Oriental Pied Hornbill species due to it's colour.( I'm no expert but had a feeling there)

Hmm... not to forget this someone who seems to bug me everyday. Getting very sien ar annoyed. May it be a guy or girl , whoever you are, BEGONE I SAY, BEGONE!

Burning anger in my fragile heart,
the fire burns from day to day,
Should I throw darts at your wart,
shocking you with dismay.

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Begone, begone, I dare say,
For you meant nothing to me,
Go,go, I dare say,
For you casted a blight on me.


I shall try to forget that for we shall be merry men (and women) till the heart fails!
Came home quite early today, had grandma's awfully delicious dumplings again. She never fails to please my stomach (^.^). As always, went on Facebook after that ( I'm starting to go Grr... on Fb for stealing my brain capacity) , spent a few hours on my violin, did some research and had some ugly moments alone, thinking how stupid I was to do this and that ... and this and that.. and this and that... and everything bleh(noun). I tried to help, and I hope it went all right... because it is my honour and duty to(as quoted from Brenda (Brenda quoted from Mulan)) help and serve my friends in solving their problems and troubles. I shall begin de novo and show what I got. I won't be laid back anymore, I'll fight!

As St.Paul said, 'Fight a good fight!'

Hehe... I'm nuts ain't I? Tata people.





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A millennium after...

Haven't been posting anything for a long time now. maybe I should start again.. which is righhtttt now...

With PMR out of my mind , I can at least set my mind free from worries (Still got results, I noe! Gahh) . More to come as they say, so many more. Seriously true though, now, I couldn't find any time for myself (As a student in CH, being busy is nothing awkward). Filled with exams, functions, classes, and meetings makes my daily routine so passé ( very last year, that is...). On the other hand, these routines brought back some pleasant (and some not) memories along with some tears of anger and spite.

See... I'm not used to blogging liao... anymore!

Anywho, anyone want cupcakes ^^?

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Hungry After Anime?

Feeling hungry? Want something for a change? What about Japanese food? Thinks that it's too expensive and you need to spend money on toll and petrol for Escapade in Brunei?( Plus the increase in Brunei Dollars...)

Fret no more!!!

Now, you can get your healthy and delicious sushi at affordable prices!!!

You must be asking if you need to travel far. Well... no!!!! You don't even need your passport anymore!

Get into your car now ( I don't care if you can drive or not) and start your engine. Your heading to Bintang Plaza! Get down and run to the new wing , ground floor. Now strut if you like... to the end of the mall and you'll see a giant fish wearing a crown and there my dear friends, is your X spot.


Now, with a menu of more than 20 colour printed pages which consists of Yakimono, Agemono, Noodles, Donburi, Owanmono, Nimono, Japanese curry dishes, Sashimi and imported desserts & drinks, you'll sure to be drowned by choices!
What's a Japanese restaurant without sushi? With 60 over types of sushi, from Nigiri to Gunkan and Maki to Temaki, you'll not regret for going.
Leave your husbands here while you go shopping. They won't bother you.
Matter in fact, you'll be waiting for him...
because he'll be one big baby to feed.
So, come down now!

Sushi King, already in a place near you.
Opens today at 5.30 sharp! Be there or be square!


My opinion:

Sushi King Miri is really good.Seriously. Let's just hope that the quality will stay the same.
This was our starter. Very simple, but you can taste how much effort the chef had placed in it.
And this my dear friends, is something new. Heard of Flounder Fish? Well, here it is. bet you've seen it in Spongebob.


Something new. Wasabi Ebiko with something something.. and no, that's not char siew.

The nori seaweed was fresh and the ingredients.. as I was told, were imported from Japan. Compared to Kuching, I think the one in Miri is better.Even the ambience is nicer. Well, it's up for you guys to rate.

Oh yes, many thanks to Mr. Terrance Lim for inviting my dad and I to the opening ceremony and for the free food. It's my first time sitting at a table ...



for Bloggers only.lol
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...Of buffalos, storks and bugs...

14 years passed and it still hasn't changed.
14 years passed and I'm still going insane.
14 years passed and I had not found the uttermost love yet.
14 years passed and I grew physically , mentally and spiritually.
14 years passed and how many more years will there be for me?

2 more years and I'll be gone from this school for good. Ain't time going a little bit too fast?
I was once a newbie in 2007 and now it's 2009. Form 3 for goodness sake, form 3...
I once thought that Form 3 would never come. However, in reality, it did.
I remember the first day of orientation, the time when I first step few meters from the hall.
She approached me, said something chinese and smiled. Soon after, I found myself to be in the hall will all those other chinese student, which was kind of awkward for me ( I had never been into a crowd of chinese people before, except for my family of course) .

Then, there were these Ajks (I took quite awhile to understand this term). I remembered one guy, who was a muda. Man... did he make me think. Sadly, like, what they said, bonds start to loosen after orientation, starting from day 1.

The days passed and questions like 'How does it feel like being an ajk?' and ' Will I be like that one day?' continued to haunt my tight little brain of mine, consuming every little space there is.
Now, after all those years, I actually found the answers to my own question.

Sadly, more questions start to pop up and as people grow, we'll be more or less sensitive to every tiny bit of particle around us. Filled with sorrow and despair, I continue to crave for the answers. How annoying it is, killing me every second of my life, draining my blood slowly till the very last drop. Worries start to rise too. Everything, completely everything, has something for me to think about. Why this? Why me? I don't want this to happen... no way!!! I can't control myself anymore. Sick of living...

I pray, that I continue to live. Oh please have mercy Lord... have mercy. Save me from all evil and guide me along the road of nails and vipers...
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Renovation In Progress

Time for a change! Please wait!
Lala
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Time and I


Ai ci pak jik lo, Achoh.
We still miss you.
对不起 for I won't be going back to Kuching
with the others.
However you will always be in my heart.
Mien tai huanoh nanang.
Nanang e cai lu kin tau teng tu pang sim liao.
Love...You

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A Mini Year of Two Weeks

Exams are over, finally. Those mind wrecking disgusting white pieces of pages are gone! Well, for now that is. As the first few hours of the exam aftermath pass by, I deliberately tidied up the books which sprawled in every nook and cranny of my room.( Including the drawers, the bed and also the toilet, which is not in my room). I thought it would give me some peace of mind, but noooo..... I felt more disturbed than ever since! Why? Well, maybe it's the scorching big red ball in the sky or it might be the flies. Flies and heat + a little sister who thinks she is gothic by destroying her awfully young nails with BLACK nail polish, just makes the happiest day dull.

Let's skip that now, we won't like to have more sorrow in our lives do we? :-B

Oh yes, I forgot!

I would gladly declare this day, 29th May as the first day of the year 09.5 ! It's the year long ( 2 weeks in the matter in fact) relaxation period and also PMR pro-preparation time! I would to live this year... without the preparation thingy that is. Only if money fall from the sky *sigh*

Second day.. second day.. what to do for second day? I suppose I can.. play my violin... and well...err.. I don't know -_-"

Let's just hope that something happens tomorrow. Have a nice evening everyone!

Signing out,
Ian
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I Confess ...


Yea, I do. I do, have a doll when I was young and I'm proud of it. Guess what, I still have it hear, and oh yes, I still love it very very much.

Let's say hello to the only original Disney Toy of this character...


Mr. Jack Skellington !

I always loved Jack Skellington. He's so cool (and cute)!

I LOVE YOU MR. JACKIE!
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Random Pics

Random stuff from the past (ranging from March until 6th of May)

Converse!


The Prince, lol.


My cousin's shoes became an ornament


Pet Fish


Niah Trip


Half-boiled at Kluang Station


Ben & Jerry's Froyo Cherry Garcia(This one is nice!)


My one and only art.


Climbing the steps of truth


Sunway Pyramid


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For you guys who need it

This is Jalan Lim Chee Hian (Berjajar)
Hope it's right 0_0
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A smile of sadness ...

What I last remembered was your smile, trying to disguise the misery deep within you.
Now, the smile disappears from sight and depression can be seen written all over your face.
What happened to you my dear friend? Has this Life turned you downside up?
Or maybe you were just a hypocrite, with all truth well hidden beneath the thick skin of yours.
You were once a happy person. However, after all those groups you joined,
I understand you no more.

You became something else, more or less like a self destroyer.
You thought you had it, but it was all a mistake.Do not take things for granted my dear friend.
You were given this chance, but you ruin it. You were given a burning flame but you extinguish it.
Do you not appreciate it? You should know that it's too late after it has been given.
And now, it's all gone, all is lost.

Do not fret my dear friend, you still have a tiny chance to gain what you lost and find what was never found. Among the twenties, the tens, the clubs, and the friends, you will have a chance once more. Find what you truly have and destroy what you thought you have , set yourself free to a world of new openings. It's not needed for you to compare with others, for what you are,
makes you special and unique. Being like them is not your goal for the truth to yourself is what you seek.

Good Luck my dear friend, in restoring your hope, and joy. Now it's time to part, my ...

Friend,
whom I see in the mirror , a boy.
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I Heard An Angel?

A gem of life, she is totally awesome!Her voice is oh so angelic!Though she looks alil' uh...*insert whatever you want to say here*, her voice is truly magnificent.Even Simon Cowell is impressed!

She is none other than SUSAN BOYLE!!!

Watch the video HERE!!!

Lesson Learnt, never judge a book by it's cover.


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Running Man

Sweat rolled down your cheeks,heavy panting ,heart in the mouth, just waiting to come out.

You see a man running.He looked back and kept running.Running in a place where you never been before.

Moments later, it seems that you lose sight of the man.You looked back and realised that somethings after you.
You started to worry and started run.However, you realised that you are running.Way before you saw those despicable things.
Nobodies in sight.Only you and those Things.Where is the ending line?Why is there no end?Run?I can't run anymore...but..but...you kept running, not slowing down even a minute.

Then, you saw a guy right in your tracks.You asked, he answered.
Well, he did not actually answer, he just pointed to the light in front.

You ran through him and he exploded into a pool of blood and flesh.

Those things are getting closer and closer...more and more of them starts to appear.

You arrive to the light, searching for something you never seen before.

'CHINATOWN' a neon sign flashes.

Oh yay.

Somehow, it's deserted.Somehow, you knew a place where you 'll find protection.

It's infront of you.You started to laugh.However, everything went...black.

Once you gain sight, you saw a white..i don't know... just plain white.

Oh wait...

It was only a dream....

The 'Running Man ' Dream.Scariest of them all....
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Gone and Back...

Sorry for not updating for such a long time.Just came back From K Lumpur.

Life had been kinda bumpy these days.Been thinking and WORRYING too much.Feel like going for counseling but I don't really dare to.Why you ask?.................

I need renewal now.Thinking back how I did last exam, I really make myself worry.I don't want to end up as a madman , psycho or whatsoever such, matter in fact, nobody does.During The Exam Week , I killed my brain by stuffing it with 'Mind,Body,Soul killing worries'.I lose faith in myself.Even English Paper 1 was kind of hard!!!!(NEVER happened before, seriously)

My friends are even worried!(Thanks for listening to my rumbles Mel, Erika, Justine and Nix)
I can't stake their hearts!!!It's just like bonus sin points.

After reading Mallory's post, I realized how much I missed in my 14++ years.Ain't that sad?I actually felt what she had wrote and how she was cleansed just by attending the camp.

After all these woohahs ,like , muda and faci thingy, I realised that I was among the weakest of them all.I did help, but I felt like a burden as well.I wasn't as outspoken nor was I the one who councils or even the idea-bag type.i was more to.. lone... alone...

Problem?

VOICING OUT

Yes...seriously, will find someone to help me.

Fast...A.S.A.P
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Great Grandma

Friday,27th February,2009,

Acoh passed away peacefully at 1.15p.m in Normah ,Kuching.

Aged 90, she was supposed to have a big birthday this year...

Leaving her 11 children and 50++ grand and great grand children.

My heart bleeds its sorrow,
for my great grand has gone,
much loved by the family,
which she had brought all along.

The time for her has arrived,
now she had gone,
peace be with her,
and always will.

God,she's for you to care now,
for she is ever loving,
God,she's for you to care now,
for we lost her,
who loved us,
oh so much.

Thank You Lord for giving me such a great chance for seeing my great grandmother.
I still remember..2 years ago...she was sitting on that chair...looking at us.At times, she blanked out, at times she remembered.She was oh so caring and that she greets us every time we visit her.

I remember the time, when we visit her.With her maid, she be at home, alone.Her black mole makes her special, a beauty even until now.

God, I pray , take good care of her.Thank you for making me go home now.I truly believe in you Lord.I truly.

Acoh,
Rest in Peace.

Written on,
1.45 pm,Friday
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